ok i seriously dont know what is wrong with the stupid internet in china but lj is freaking working for me again.. and the bad news is... blogspot is down..

so anyway, i've been good and counting down my days cause i cannot, seriously cannot stand the locals here cause they are a bunch of brain-less people. and the worst part is, i just took freaking 5 months to 'wake up' and realise all this shit.

case 1

a 30+ lady, married with a daughter, loves to spend all her money away, ending up owing the bank heaps of money through her credit card bills. unfortunately, her husband doesn't, or should i say, cannot, don't have the ability to help pay off her debts. SO, they have been quarreling over money issues. THEREFORE, she is SO NOT going to care about anyone INLCUDING her 8 year old daughter BUT herself, in fact, she doesn't like kids in the first place. Conclusion, she is going to change her job and go for a very not decent job.

whatever, i'm speechless~

there are many more, but i don't feel like writing it all out  as it will leave a history and will only remind me of the bad memories so i've chose the most atrocious case just to remind myself before i make any major decision.  

jas and shina: do u guys have lj user so i can lock some of my posts?

do not understand:

why some just don't give others a chance to decide on something themselves?
why some just can't accept the fact that others have different methods of doing things?
why some just don't realise that by doing all that, will cause others to just want to shut off and walk away?
why some can use heartless and hurtful words on others to let them feel really useless and meaningless?
why some just can't be contented with what they have?
why some have to keep comparing with others?
why some have to mind what others would say?
why some can't live their own life according to their own wish?

so many why's, but there is no exact answer to them, because, no one knows the correct answer.

 

the plan is:

2 more weeks to exams...
christmas dinner on the 9th..
gonna pack the whole room up by the 9th..
11th taking our dear sq reaching sg evening..

HOWEVER
i still have to complete 3 assignments by this friday..
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fuck off!

left with a month or so of school and back to the industry working..
anw main point is, there's heaps of assignments and exams that need to be studied..

but HOWEVER, not much time left..
no more playing.. but start to churn out everything..
in other words, less sleeping time, more awake time..
haha i just made that up..
oh! means i'll be eating in weird timings or intervals to stay awake..
yea you guys know me, eating non-stop?? itchy mouth??

lol.. anw not only me.. i really need to stock up my cupboards with all sorts of food that includes all sorts of instant noodles, campbell soup, spaghetti and carbonara sauces... haix.. school life = unhealthy life
a standard student-life?

haha.. ok serious note.. am happy that you're back.. am happy we're on talking terms.. am happy we did made it into each history.. am happy i'm using my mac..(ok i know no link but still??) am happy someone made the first move.. xD

on a really serious note: i need to START studying/churning out all assignments/ organising more meetings to complete all group assignments!!

if you're reading this, (you know who you are!) close all the soccer websites + news, sign out of msn and stop playing or idling around in FB!!!
start your work!!!

arghh... i'm so scared abt fidelio.. don't know if able to pass cause if you key the wrong name you fail straight? haix, hate it.. but then i'm the first one to come out of the room again.. haix.. ARGH.........

hopefully i'll pass man..cause i can answer everything.. the only thing i wasn't sure was which is the first and last name.. haix haix~

gonna have fidelio assessment tmr..wish me luck man.. hopefully i'll pass seriously, lol

anw fidelio is a program for front desk..

hmm feeling very low for the past few days but now getting better..

anw, not much time left already, the assignments are due slowly..

have to really start getting into my assignments..

jas, this is my new hair style but then a bit messy and blur.. but something like this.. length wise still the same or maybe longer.. haha the only diff is i cut my fringe to that..

i'm bored, actually there's many things to do but not in the mood yet..

seriously, i don't know what to blog.. shit happens though.. anw will be back again..
oh oh!! i'm experiencing summer now but still a bit cold though.. the weather is shit here too..

a new hairdo for me...

yup thats right.. i just got a hair cut and new colour..

anw.. i won't let you look down on me even though whatever i've done you just don't agree with me, but what can i do? i am who i am..
what's done is done. i can't reverse or change anything. i know you always think i'm useless, crazy girl. but i know what i'm doing.
don't blame any innocent party. i allow u to do whatever you want to me. i won't say a single thing nor move a step.

you're right! i am who i am.. like what you've said.

i'm getting disgusted whenever i hear about you or your name or by the sight of you, and all i can say is, you give me no choice!

i won't lose to your precious eventually, pls bear that in mind!

enjoy the rest of your life cause i'll be always haunting you!

i'm flying back on sat 04 Oct, QF82, at 2230 international terminal 1.
will reach there 0740 on 05 Oct terminal 1..

1 last full day in sg then i'm left with sat to pack and get all the last-minute stuff done..
don't feel like going back..
i'm not ready to go back to face everything..
i prefer now though.. peaceful and am free to do whatever i want..

anw.. can i have the pictures taken on that day?? lol is kb's blog dead? what's his blog add btw? anw someone send to me or upload it and i'll take from there?? hahahaha i think once go back i'll go online very seldom..

laopos:

its true that all 3 of us had changed but like what shina say, changed to a certain extend. anw, i'm glad that i came back this time round so that i get to meet the two of you. the last time i came back, i got no time to spend time with shina and jas, you were'nt back yet. i can't remember how the 3 of us will end up together but i only remember i started calling u 2 laopos...hehehe anw jas, who is the 'her'??? LOL

3 people with 3 totally different life but one common thing, want to get out of sg..haha eh maybe next time want to meet have to arrange overseas no more in sg already. ahahaha cool !

think back, we 3 didn't had any fights before right?? haha haix, so feel like going back to sec sch days.. so shuang..

eh shina, i wait for you to go overseas kk.. must hurry.. and pls don't make yourself so busy and tired, you got a weak body and weak nose.. don't forget!!! have to take care..

jas, we go first then meet her outside?? LOL you also have to take care, if you really gonna work and study at the same time, remember to priortise your studies first kk..more important..

and of course, most importantly, have to always stay happy... =)

no matter how much we've changed and have grown up, the 3 of us will always be together, and the 2 of you will always be my dearest laopos..

scattyjas:
im oso not the old jasmine leh (although as lame as ever!)

we all grow up le! experience more things than ever~

is it a good thing or bad?

too strong for good..

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i think it depends. There's pros and cons to it..
experience more stuff, you'll grow up and be more independent, mindset will change too.
see more things, esp in the hospitality industry, everything will change.
sometimes you feel that no one understand the new 'you'.
sometimes, you just want people to know that you've changed and stop treating like the old 'you'.
i think in a way its good.
cause at least you'll be stronger inside..
that's what i think.
being stronger helps a lot, like you wouldn't care about many lame shit stuff like what you used to do..

anw.. i miss home..
the bad thing is, being too strong suck too..

因為愛你.所以放手還你自由
因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾
因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過
因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

Are they true? will he turn back and notice?

I don't know

" Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.."

" If you love something, set it free;m if it comes back it's yours; if it doesn't; it never was"

Don't know why, I just love these 2 quotes.

How do you know when its the right time to take action?

Everyone always ponder over this question for a correct answer, which sometimes will never get it.

Can't wait to get away from everything.

It's happening, very very soon..

Really, really can't wait for it to come..

And I know, things will never always be the same.

I've grown up and changed, am not the old 'viki'.

1 down, 4 to go..

screwed first paper.. so shit.. hopefully i'll pass.. sian..

im supposed to be studying for my exams next week..
but im playing fb... so shit..
lol anw, did study a bit.. haha

next time post again.. lol

finally, i get to take a break..
after heaps of reports/assignments due this week..
such a hectic week this week..
but next 2 weeks will be exams..

luckily, this time round is only 5 subs..
even though i have 14 subs, there's few that's not exam based..
thank god!

anw..for the past week, have been treating myself badly..
there's few days straight didnt eat anything..cuz there wasn't any time..
but its common though in here..
haha
there's no time to sleep as well..
and its ultra-common too..
but what can i say?
this industry is like this..
hhaa

i just realise there is no privacy in this industry..
news just travels around..
so, recommend not to get a partner from the same industry..
its too shit.. lol

anw, i cant wait for my term break..

a quick update before 12.30pm class.

its 12.11pm now. just finished with my internship report last night including submission.
still have pm portfolio 1 to do tonight cuz its due tmr..
anw it'll be an easy one i guess..cuz i'm left with the last essay..

haven't been sleeping for the the past few days..
have been sitting in front of com for more than average 16 hours a day..
and this situation is gonna continue..

having exams for the next 2 weeks..
then a week of classes..
finally, term break!!
finally, can rest and sleep..
but, there'll definitely be assignments to do..
cuz.. there's few assignments due after the break already..

finally, i've already been accepted in Sheraton Ningbo for my next internship which is end of the year for 6 months..
will be going for management training.. which is working closely with the GM and attending management meetings etc..
after this placement, i plan to apply for management training in US for a year..

class time.. bb

first of all, HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SHINA!!!

anw, i'm back in school, currently 2nd year. 
many assignments and reports to do. subjects getting difficult too..
heaps to do to meet all the datelines..

first half of this year, i was in melb having internship for 6 months with RACV Club, which is a membership club.
things were great and had so much fun with all and now, missing each and everyone.

2nd half of this year, back to school..

end of year, either china or sg for 6-12 months again..
not decided yet.. many factors affecting my decision..

back to school
i won't be sleeping tmr.. need to rush out my ip (internship/industry placement) report cause its the final draft submission on wed. the next submission will be the final report already.. 

anw.. i'm addicted to COKE. seriously, i drink 2 litre bottle of coke like water.. so imagine a can of coke to me.. LOL its like NOTHING..
but ivan is controlling my consumption of coke.. i know its really bad.. but i just cant help it..
used to drinking coke like nobody's business in melb for 6 whole months.. and to stay awake, i need COKE cause i dont drink coffee..
apparantly, i still think coffee suck? lol

-back to the school topic-
its been a month since i started school.. and haven't been sleeping much cause too busy and stuff..
sometimes, everyone just got too stress till they fuck things up.. haha i fuck things up too..
i'll start being cranky, grumpy and easily irritated and HUNGRY..
haha 

i need to sleep.. tmr having kitchen 720am.. food's nice though.. haha oh fyi, i eat huge amounts now..;p